The is no one coming.

Anti-toph here. Used to be more active. Disappeared when brotherchu passed bc I had some outside stuff going on. This post is talking about MY experience and how I know tophia is waiting on something that’ll never come. If you don’t like that kinda thing, here’s your warning. Anyway, I’m gonna sparknotes this as best I can. I never watched tophia. I saw her online sometimes, I remember feeling bad once bc she posted crying about not being the beauty standard. I was with a regular cheater, so I empathized with her. But kept going. In comes homelessness era 2024. It catches my eye because my relationship is scary. I’m being forced to sleep in my car every time my ex is mad at me. And we’re in the inner city, my car window doesn’t roll up. It’s November. I’m in New England so I don’t have warmth like tophia. I’d watch her and it scared me into staying with my abuser. I ended up being trafficked. Detained and locked inside of a house for six weeks along the time brotherchu passed. And I went through some horrific SA, psychological torture, and manipulation. I’m telling you guys a lot right here. For two reasons. One- I need to tell people this. My time is almost out and the police are not listening. Two- I spent some of my time while locked in the house calling around homeless shelters in ABQ. I was detained in a room of the house for hours and hours on end and stupid missions like making sure papachu ate for the day were allowed. It annoyed her because I wasn’t minding my business, but she figured it was harmless so I could. Therefore, I was invested in tophia lore. I actually became a homelessness caseworker for a bit. (They fired me for leaving my trafficker. Genuinely). And I became homeless. My trafficker had me framed. So I was barred from dv resources, and I have been like this since April. I had to change my identity, so the homelessness resource “lost me”. I lost my waiting time and got kicked off of lists. I’m still barred from working. My trafficker has her family keep tabs on me. And through all of this, there is no help. I need tophia to see that. She is a victim of a violent crime. Whether people like to admit that or not. But she can NOT sit in this. I’m trying to come out of my learned helplessness now. But you HAVE TO. the shelters are full. I’ve been on waitlists since last year. The money the funding that people are supposed to get is spent. And with this administration, nothing is being replenished. Tophia is being blatantly stupid. Any money coming in is NOT going to come back. Lawyers have not helped me, police officers have told me that SA does not happen between women. This is a plea. This is a plea to anyone listening. Get out. Get out always. But be smart. Be smart about your money. Be smart about your next location. Be smart about hiding. NOBODY is coming to hug you and tell you it’s okay. NOBODY is there to listen about the danger. There is NO house coming. I’ve gone up to three months without eating and had not a single resource brought my way. I say this because I know tophia and her mom are always trolling here. I say this because when my time is up, my story will be forgotten as “what could we have done nobody expected this”. I say this because I know there’s more people like me and maybe you’re here too. Tophia, your life was unstable so you don’t know stability. I didn’t either. so when I had what I thought was stability, I wasn’t willing to give it up. Stability is a blessing. Having a bed, being able to SHOWER. I know it hurts tophia. To feel this floating in an unknown ocean feeling. You don’t feel like a human anymore. The spending on patty melts and nails and comic con and dresses that are too small has to stop. You have to crave stability. Really I just wanted to pop in because I miss everyone. I don’t know how everyone is doing since the brotherchu thing. I hope you’re all well. I miss this group.